1. |
In Time/I've Been Down
05:12
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I've been out, standing in line
It makes me wanna make it, wanna wake up
Maybe in time
Baby, it's time
I've been down this road, driving me crazy
Wanna outdo but I fall through
Maybe I'm right
I'm just a lie
You get off putting me off
Putting me inside a box
In the loft, hold down my heart
So it can't get to my head
Keep it red
Keep it hell-bent
Keep your consent
I take offence
Raised to be held in esteem
It's killing me
It's killing me
(so submit)
Self-possessed and mean
That's what you get for being part of a scene
You get off putting me off
Putting me inside a box
In the loft, hold down my heart
So it can't get to my head
Keep it red
Keep it hell-bent
Keep your consent
I take offence
Keep it red
Keep it hell-bent
Keep your consent
I take offence
I've been down
Driving me crazy
Driving me crazy
Hold down my heart
Hold down my heart
It makes me wanna wake up
Wake up
It's killing me
It's killing me
Me
I've been down
I've been down
(Crazy)
I've been down
I've been down
(Crazy)
Wanna outdo but I fall through
Wanna outdo but I fall through
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2. |
Hedonism
02:56
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Beautiful boy
I'll love you forever
Until you are blue
Are you a god? Can you make me new?
If you prove it I'll take a chance on you
I breathe in your smoke
I suffocate while you choke
Concentrate on the motions
Don't look where we're going
Hedonism hurts if you give it a moment
A moment
I don't want to ruin you forever
Like I usually do
Blood rushes my cheeks cause I know you see through
My ruse, I look down as I free the parachute
I breathe in your smoke
I suffocate while you choke
Back your quietest emotion
Could this be an omen?
Hedonism hurts if you give it a moment
Hedonism hurts if you give it a moment
Hedonism hurts if you give it a moment
A moment
A moment
Don't look where we're going
Don't look where we're going
Don't look where we're going
We're golden
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3. |
Ships Passing
03:35
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I don't mean to slight you
I only want you
For more than the afternoon
Do you share this view?
I'd like to unearth you
So scared of a ruse
Last light fades on the roof
Paints you Yves Klein blue
Sometimes my words fail
Talking to you, wit's to no avail
I lose my skin
I record everything
Even if it's not clear
Know I care
Sometimes my words fail
Talking to you, wit's to no avail
I lose my skin
I record everything
Even if it's not clear
Know I care
Can't see past my insecurities
Security's all I want for you and me
Where did I put the key?
Still, follow me
Even if the door just leads to a dream
I'd like to unearth you
Timing's all wrong, it's true
Last light fades on the roof
Darkens my hopes too
Sometimes my words fail
Talking to you, wit's to no avail
I lose my skin
I record everything
Even if it's not clear
Know I care
Sometimes my words fail
Talking to you, wit's to no avail
I lose my skin
I record everything
Even if it's not clear
Know I care
Ships passing in the night
Worlds collide
Briefly bright
Somehow I missed your light
Swam too deep
Didn't see that
You were
In my reach
Still too far out to see
That in the night, you passed me
You were
On the beach
There's an island past this sea
We can meet and start again
We can meet and start again
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4. |
No One's Around
03:52
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No one's around to listen in
The dark breathes hard upon my skin
I see this as reckoning
Something must change within
City rises as a fog
On my window when lights are off
I cocoon myself a shell
No one will help you if you don't help yourself
I go out in black attire
Dip my head with a smile
Give a performance worth their while, still
You don't have to say that
I owe them debts, I must collect
I collect
I coalesce
I read the books, I know enough
It's bittersweet how I know so much
In light that I'd never stop
This way of life, no, I won't give habits up
Tried to be still when up split the dawn
These days I sleep with no curtains drawn
To my chest, I hold a box
It tumbles as I fall
This heart so culpable
I go out in black attire
Dip my head with a smile
Give a performance worth their while, still
You don't have to say that
I owe them debts, I must collect
I collect
I coalesce
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5. |
Far Away
03:44
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If you didn't know me, you'd say that I seem
To make no mistake
Won't catch me in a daze- not while you can see my face
I'd rather slip away
You're frozen in your tracks, but your skin is not such a changeless cage
Dread the mountain, where to begin?
And so goes another day
You say
You're so far away
It's like I'm looking at a stranger's face
You've not been the same
Since December, when you took that plane
And now that you've erased yourself
Are you happy this way?
Aren't you cold?
In the rain
All the same
Oh no, nothing changed
It's not what you will
Like a halo around me, you pace and you only
Speak honestly
Everyone has noticed, now you've got the onus
To take your grief
Change it to belief
Watch the leaves fall
There's still much to see
Then, so suddenly
Lights are green
You look me in the eye and I know
Lack was a pipe dream
I'm frozen in my tracks, but my skin is not such a changeless cage
Dread the mountain, where to begin?
And so goes another day
You're so far away
It's like I'm looking at a stranger's face
You've not been the same
Since December, when you took that plane
You're so far away
It's like I'm looking at a stranger's face
You've not been the same
Since December, when you took that plane
And now that you've erased yourself
Are you happy this way?
Aren't you cold?
In the rain
All the same
In the rain
All the same
Oh no, nothing changed
Do with that what you will
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6. |
Phone
02:42
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I don't remember meeting you
You say we're mutual friends, probably true
I'm sorry if I came across detached
When I'm watched, it's hard to relax
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
You're on hold
Scroll the camera roll
She called me up and I felt older
I had to tell her
I see you all the time
And there's no doubt behind your eyes
Oh he's doing fine, he's doing fine
From the start, he was saying goodbye
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
She sees that you're not where you ought to be
Gave away whereabouts accidentally
Baby, just stay don't fade away
In 2D, your image is memento mori
She sees that you're not how you ought to be
Don't even look as you cross the street
Our line's breaking up
It's not your fault, it's no one's
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
When she gets off the phone
Can you tell that she's hurt?
You left your heart on a note
I don't think that you'll learn
When she gets off the phone
And you write her a note
Are the pages filled up
Or blank as they burn?
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7. |
Miss
02:58
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Shadows hasten along the street
He leans out like he could reach
All his notes slip out of tune
'Til it's you in the living room
You'd had the question on your lips
So insistent you could taste it
Let it sit as he arose
Watch him turn off from your road
And I don't think about it
If I can help it
But when the sky's like this
I miss your touch
I miss your love
I relive when I held you in the pool
Made me feel beautiful
Held you in
I held you in
I held you in
I held you in
In another key, you visit me
Saying that you transposed your needs
Say it's a movie, say it's a dream
Either way, it's a smokescreen
But two feels so good
Loving being understood
Floodlights, fields, and moon
I could never regret you
And I don't get too down if
I try, you gave due notice
Now we laugh about it
And I wish you luck
I give you up
It's dangerous
To let one person be enough
Held you in
I held you in
I held you in
I held you in
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8. |
Unless
03:12
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I thought I'd felt all the feelings that were in this life
Tried on others' eyes, still too camera shy
I will shield you from all I do
But I'm not the same as you
Oh no, you go
Making homes in hearts
Like you think it could last
You drift out to sea
But you're tethered to me
Went from make-believe to nights of entropy
You're not impressed
And I'm selfish 'cause I love the stress
And I don't regret the mess
Unless I lose a piece of you
I'd never ask for your forgiveness
Either way, I'd still find no rest
He's written on my lips as proof
And still I'm not as good as you
Oh no, you go
Making homes in hearts
Like you think it could last
You drift out to sea
But you're tethered to me
Went from make-believe to nights of entropy
You're not impressed
And I'm selfish 'cause I love the stress
And I don't regret the mess
Unless
You're not impressed
And I'm selfish 'cause I love the stress
And I don't regret the mess
Unless I lose a piece of you
Lose the pieces of yourself
The pieces that you lost
You lose
The pieces that you love, you lost
You lose
You drift out to sea
But you're tethered to me
Went from make-believe to nights of entropy
You drift out to sea
But you're tethered to me
Went from make-believe to nights of entropy
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9. |
Believe
03:11
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Trying to find my way through the airport
I thought I saw someone like you
Empty takeaway box and headphones tied up
Anything could remind of who
I used to be
'Cause you were me
Give me one song
Before our denouément
Can you hear what you're saying?
I can't believe it
Can't unsee your silhouettes
From the French door
Letting my head get too far ahead
I see tangled threads of stars crossed red
I call you in the night and I feel close again
Closing in on hurts unsaid
I used to be
Swathed in my debris
Give me one song
Before our denouément
Can you hear what you're saying?
I can't believe it
Can't unsee your silhouettes
From the French door
Believe in (chance)
I can't believe it
I can't believe in
I can't believe in chance
I can't believe your silhouettes
From the French door
I can't believe it
I can't
I cant
I can't believe it
I can't
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10. |
Silver Tongue
03:38
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There's a part of me that thinks this won't change
Change means loss and I'm not down to give you up
So I absorb
A part of everyone I see
Their grief- the defence of being mean
And you gleam by the water
With your tongue dripping silver
There's conversations I'm avoiding with myself
Seems closure's an island as far away as health
So I talk
To walls instead, walk where we first met
The swell, the monster under the bed
And you gleam by the water
With your tongue dripping silver
I'll narrate our epilogue
The final word's not enough
I didn't sense your dread
I didn't want it to end
I didn't want it to end
So I talk
To walls instead, walk where we first met
The swell, the monster under the bed
And you gleam by the water
With your tongue dripping silver
Silver tongue
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